I had lots of pain, anger and anguish in me when I started to write this. I was angry at her and for what she did and had put me through. Wounds so deep that my blood use to boil just thinking of what I went through, my skin use to crawl just knowing someone is still doing it to me. Then I came across a kid who taught me the most important lesson in life “Pay it forward”. It’s not complicated its simple; all you need to do is do one good deed, it does not matter if it is random or a planned one. Just go out and do it, help someone who is not expecting any help and don’t expect it to return, just ask the person you did it for to pay it forward to someone else. So if everyone does it, then the world would be a better place and believe me when I say this that it is going to come around to you, as your life is goes in a circle, all you need to do is have faith and pay it forward and the circle of life will come back to you.
I forgive the love that caused me the pain, I forgive people who ridiculed me, I forgive people who had hurt my family and I forgive everyone who has ever been a reason for sadness for me. Irrespective of what I went through I forgive you. I am being selfish here as I know I am not perfect by a mile and I will make mistakes and hurt people and do things that will cause them pain and anger but if I can’t forgive people who do that to me then who am I to expect the same in return.
We all carry scars in life, some are hidden and some are too big to hide. Scars are only given people who are close to our hearts and little did we know that they were carrying a knife with them only to cut you deep. Who has not done it, who has not made a mistake, who are we not to forgive, who are we to judge, we are nobody. Just go ahead and put your hand someone else’s scars and ask them to do the same not to you but for someone else. Believe me the joy of life is in giving.
As the circle completes, you will turn back and see the hand of someone, someone you would know and someone you would love on your scar just healing it. It may also happen that it takes too long or it might never come back to you does that mean you will not pay it forward, no you should because as life goes on you will either be a giver or a receiver, if you are giver of good deeds then you are blessed and if you are receiver, only pray that you are a receiver of that hand that heals your soul.
I forgive you now go and pay it forward do a good deed for someone else. Heal your scars.